Just a Random Post

I made this at 2.08 AM
Do you ever feel this feeling?

 I have a random thinking this morning, or maybe i called this night. Do you ever think, that someone you called friend, bestfriend, my baby, bbf, boyfriend, lover, partner, the one that you call him/her with special name, or even the one that you brag to everyone "i love him/her, he/she give me all of their time." "i love him'her. he/she knows every part of my life" or something like that, is never really truly understand you, never really have all of their time for you when you feeling lonely,sad, and feeling worthless, and afterall their gonna judge you because they dont even give a time to take a look from our special way? and your friend and the one you brave enough to call her/him "bestfriend" that just come to you when they need you, but when you looking for them, they dont even turn their face? At the end, we are gonna struggle with ourself, thinking why did something happened, why did some event happened to us, why our faith isn't as good as the others, and you just wanna disappeared from your abstract world? isnt this true or we're just not grateful enough with all blessing that God made for us?

 or.. i just have some trust issues..